Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Driving for the Family...


The hardest thing about watching your child fight sickness, especially something called cancer, is witnessing your child lose their innocence. I can’t explain the whole situation because I don’t completely understand it my self. This little blessing you create is your angel. If you have no children it might be hard to understand, but if you’re lucky enough to have the experience of raising children then you know what I mean.


My child wanted to cuddle and snuggle nine months ago.
Sickness hit then things changed. There are so many other things going on besides being daddy’s little girl now. That is the worst for me. I want to love but it’s an inconvenience for her at times. Sickness rules the house and everything else is secondary.


Kaylee left for the emergency room around 9:30 tonight for blood.
She is running low and needs it badly so we decided to take her tonight instead of waiting until tomorrow. We are so close to the final phase, we want to be safe and we want Kaylee to feel as healthy as possible. I stayed home with Christian.

I went in to check on the little guy and he was sleeping. This is unusual for him. We normally have to tell him to go to sleep. He was sleeping when I went in around 10:30. I suspect he wanted to end the day because of Kaylee and the fact his big sister had to pack up and go to the hospital so late. As I went to turn the TV off I looked at the top of his head. The only thing exposed beneath the covers. I felt for him. He is part of a family that has to make concessions for the sickness. I love him for taking it and never complaining.

I took Christian to baseball tonight. I let the dog go as well. As I watched him I could not help but think how incredibly talented he is. He is so good at baseball. So good that he gets noticed by everyone that passes by any field he is on. His talent is not being inflated by a proud father but being relayed from a spectator who happens to be his proud father.

Being good at something doesn’t guarantee you’ll be noticed. Christian is noticed and I hope he continues to get the notoriety from his hard work & talent. I think being good at something is important. I was okay at wrestling. But sports never fully engaged me. They still don’t. I had a ticket for tomorrow's basketball tournament but I decided I have more important things to get done.

I like what I do for a living. Today I was finishing up where my construction guy fell short and I felt something. I was watching people working in the Power & Light District this morning and I couldn’t help but feel the feeling of working for someone else. I don’t have much experience working for others but I do have certain memories. My memories usually involve a pit in my stomach. I hated being somewhere because someone told me to be there. Weird but true. I never really found that place with anyone else’s business. I would arrive do what was expected but I never truly fit in. That’s okay. I respect everyone that can earn a living whether it be for their selves or for the other guy.

I had to leave at 6:00am this morning to get to the jobsite. As I was driving I felt a great feeling. It wasn’t because I was going to my awesome job, but for all the people driving to theirs. I couldn’t help but think that the majority of those driving were doing so to feed their families. They were up early to make things happen for those loved ones probably still at home sleeping. Maybe it was me that I was watching in those other cars!

Monday, March 10, 2008

Sonic...

Today was a great day. I came into contact with an old friend from grade school who films the Sonic commercials for Barkley Evergreen. His name is Charlie and we went to St. Agnes together. He was a few years older than me but I remember him well.

I was told by my wife that a little girl who frequents Children's Mercy with us, Jillian Sharp, likes Sonic Drive-In. Jillian is a child that is fighting health issues as well. We are in clinic and occasionally admitted in the hospital on the same days. Her parents both went to the same high school as Tammie and I.

It just happens that Charlie is flying out to Phoenix to shoot a commercial with the Sonic crew this week. Charlie offered to get us signed pictures of the actors! We are excited to be part of the Sonic family even for a day! I'm so amazed at the kindness of people.

It is so nice to witness generosity from others. Most people might not remember that they over heard someone saying they like Sonic, but since this sickness thing I try to remember every little detail about the kids and what they like. Maybe it's because I know their dislikes, hospital visits, needles, and the inconvenience of being in the hospital when they should be at school playing.

I hope that Kaylee and Jillian enjoy the honor of someone taking the time to do something special for them. I know that they have so much on their plates that has to do with serious stuff, maybe this will give them a break for a moment. Thank you Charlie D.

Doing Good...

Kaylee is doing good. She looks good but it looks like we will have to make a trip to CMH tomorrow/today to get blood. She is very pale and dizzy. We think she is running low so we are going in to get a much needed infusion. Who would have ever thought we would have to worry about our baby girl's blood? Life, our life.

I try to do good everyday. My plate is full but I make it a point to do good for anyone I can. Is that weird? I mean I have a list of children from clinic or our CMH 4-H that I try to make good things happen for. Kaylee is my priority but I want all those children to have something special. They deserve it. I think if you're a child and you fight childhood sickness you should get compensated. If you battle and lose part of your childhood you should be rewarded. A crazy idea but my idea!

I try to post as many Public Service Announcements for as many causes as I can. I usually pay for the production out of my pocket. What's next? Alex's Lemonade Stand! I'll fill you in on it as I get more info, but it is a great cause that generates money for all sorts of research that helps children like mine. www.alexslemonade.org/KClemonade.php

Well it is late and I'm tired. I hope you do good at whatever it is you do. If you can make a difference in someones life then try to. Remember if you get pale and dizzy you might need to see a doctor so you can feel good!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Style...


I was thinking about style. I'm not sure if I have much if any. I'm not saying that to be harsh on myself but I lost my need to be the best dressed and the one with the fastest car. I say I wouldn't mind having those qualities or material possessions but they are not priorities. They were at one time but not today.


It was so important to have the best looking this or that but I lost it. Where did it go? I used to have fancy labels on my clothes and it was common to have a Mercedes or Cadillac. Today I have 2 suites and one Hyundai. Oh I have a Jeep that is over 10 years-old as well. Why am I telling you this? I have to go to an Ad Agency where an old classmate works. I just found out about it recently and I must be honest, I was wondering how I look 20 yrs. later. I know I've gained weight, turned gray, and struggle each day. Am I supposed to be slimmer, colored, and wealthy?


This is irrelevant with what I have going on. Some might read this and say it doesn't matter, those things are unimportant. I agree but we all want to feel good. I've made a decision to sacrifice today for tomorrow. What does that mean? I am doing without today so I can have a better tomorrow. I invest everything in InAd TV. I pass on the fancy clothes because I can buy a TV and computer to further my business. I can't afford a nice car, one that would stroke my ego as I arrive to the meetings because I can't afford any extra financial debt.


The other day I wore a pair of straight leg jeans. Someone told me I should never wear those things ever again. They weren't stone washed, but they were straight legged! I gave a buddy a ride home a few days ago and he said that I should be driving an SUV instead of my compact Hyundai. I wore a baseball cap with my oxford the other day because my hair is too long and I haven't gotten a hair cut. I just don't care, but I do.


So I am scheduled to go visit an old classmate at a successful Ad Agency. What do I have going for me? I own a company that has a presence in every part of KC. Ninety percent of all people in KC who are under the age of 30 knows or have seen InAd TV. I work or know most everyone at every major media outlet in KC. I'm viewed as a business owner instead of someone that works at the ABC Co. I've started something unique and different. I often have people want me to tell them my story. Do people usually want other people's story? Is that the norm or is my story worth asking for?


I often tell myself that I'm an authority of digital signage. I have one of the biggest digital networks in KC and I specialize in a certain field, so I am important. I might not be curing a disease but I am on the fore front of whats to come in my chosen profession. I think that I have ideas and capabilities to add to the growth of this movement. I feel like an inventor. I'm often called an entrepreneur. So that's my story and I'm sticking to it even if I don't have style!

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Tammy Cochran...

There was a murdered woman found in Olathe, KS on 3-05-08. Her name was Tammy Cochran and she was a friend. I hadn't seen her in years but we went to school together. I would see her occasionally from year to year but that was the extent. I was called yesterday and told the tragic news.



The picture they ran of her at first made me feel good for her family. Tonight I saw Fox 4 News running her mugshots from the last few years. It broke my heart. If getting murdered and set a fire wasn't enough for any family, now they have to deal with the stories being aired. I can see the police doing their investigating and looking at all angles but for the news to write and report of her troubles is troubling.




I didn't know her son, I never had dinner with her or her family but I wish she could have had a little dignity to her name and legacy after a sudden and senseless death. I've had friends call and say she was sick with this or that but she is gone and who cares. I'm the first to say if you play with fire you'll get burned but she's gone. Let her have peace. Let her family have peace.


We all have problems of some sort. We all know someone who has been affected by bad decisions. Drug addiction, crime, and dysfunction is around everyone. You might live a righteous life but that doesn't mean you don't have a cousin battling demons. Your neighbor could be fighting to save his child from addiction. That co-worker could be living through hell even though he or she smiles as they drink that coffee. Who are we to pass judgement.

I agree that we all look at someone and say they should get their shit together. But I've learned that I'm not going to try to be that moral monitor because I do not know what people are going through or what path they've walked. It is so easy for people to say that you get what you deserve. I disagree. I think that all of us come to a cross road at some point in our life. Most of us won't go a certain path but I know a lot of good people who did go the wrong way but came back. It was direction that most look back at and say why? But they had the opportunity to come back. This poor person was a mother, daughter, and sister. She may have fought her way back, but we'll never know.

I can't restore any thing for any one, I'm trying to restore health at the moment. I wanted to write something good about a person that I knew a long time ago who I knew as a good person. So Tami Cochran rest in peace and I'm sorry you didn't have the opportunity to fight back. You're at home now and I'll tell people good things about you!

Her story can be viewed by clicking on this link, http://blogs.kansascity.com/crime_scene/2008/03/olathe-pd-inves.html

Friday, March 7, 2008

Mix 93.3

If you would like to listen to our radio interview on Mix 93.3 please click on this link. http://www.box.net/shared/clrxlsp44g

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Listen up...



Tomorrow is a big day for Kaylee and me. We are on Mix 93.3 at 8:30 ish am for the radiothon. We also invited Bailee Woods and we are excited. I hope you get the opportunity to listen and call and make a donation. If you do, throw in Kaylee and Bailee's name. Nice little plug for our girls.




I am blessed to get my baby girl a little exposure when I can. The radio will be fun because she loves the Mix and it is her favorite. I am blessed that I get to spend time with Kay & Bai tomorrow and if I do nothing else tomorrow then I would be alright.




Listen up and make a donation!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

On My Way...



Sometimes when you navigate through something as thick and dense as fog it gives you more clarity when things clear. This is becoming a gracious gift and a foe at the same time. I wanted health back but I'm not sure I wanted to see things differently when it all cleared. I say this because I am looking at my life in a different light.







I was content on accepting things that I thought were fact. Today I question my ability to accept. I want change and I want accountability. If you think that this is the hand you were dealt and life offers no better then why worry. But I say this is my wake up point and I need not take my circumstances as some random victim but as a person with an opportunity to change. I so want to change.







You might ask what is it that I would change, well it is my whole being I would concentrate on. My personal and spiritual here and now. I can't say that I have been one of strong moral standards. My spiritual existence has been almost non-existent. I have awoke from this thing called survival and want to live life. I want to enjoy the day and end my day with no remorse or doubt. I want to charter a course and stay the course. If bad things should arise while I'm on the course then so be it. I know where I'm going. My longitude and latitude are set and the speed is irrelevant. The coordinates are marked and my destination is ahead.







I can't imagine a pilot or captain not using a map to set sail. Is that crazy? Would you get on board if someone was guiding you to your destination without a map. I realize that as romantic as it sounds to have the wind move you, it is even more romantic to know what to pack for. My trips have been cold and chilly. Well I want to scrap the mittens and I want to break out the bikini. Well maybe not me, but you know what I mean.







I think it is bazaar to run a household and not know where I want to take this family. It is so easy to have children and make a family but it is harder to take a real look and ask yourself where and how do I get these people to the place they need to be. I write this and I ask you do you have a plan? I am a normal guy with normal problems. Sure I might be battling things you haven't or I might not even scratch the surface of the things you've seen but I ask you do you really have a plan set for your family? I have been like so many other families or generations that do the day to day with prayer that not too many obstacles occur. I figure if I can get these people fed, clothed, and educated it will all work out. Wrong. I need to forget about the choppy seas and wind and concentrate on the planning. I need to invest in deeper things of life. I want to teach about success, failure, and disappointment. I need to be the one that my children reference things to. I've spent so much time trying to get through to the next day that I've lost the fact that there's a lesson to be taught at every mile along the way!

Friday, February 29, 2008

The Worst...



I write tonight to share with you the worst thing that I've had to do as a parent. We give Kaylee shots in her legs 3-4 times every seven or so days. Our shots are every night and it is about 3-4 nights with a break in between. Kaylee shakes, cries, and pleads not to get them. Tammie gives them and Kay grips me. I hold her tight and she screams from the shot. It is horrendous! It is the worst thing a parent has to do.




When the doctors do it it is part of the medical gig. When we do it is painful and personal. I hate it and no parent should have to hear their child scream and plead. This is not one immunization shot, not one flu shot for the season, or any of that minor stuff. We have to do it multiple times in the next few days. I hate it and I pray you never have to hear your child plead for you to stop hurting them. If it was anything besides her health I wouldn't do it. If she cried when I took her to school like she does with these shots, she'd be home tomorrow. If it was vegetables, she wouldn't eat another. If it was wearing shoes she would be shoeless. You get the point. You have a goodnight, I'll try.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Hike for Discovery Fashion Show

I want to thank everyone for helping us during the last several months. I was eating at Beauchamp's on the Rail in Lee's Summit, MO on Monday and Jeff McKinnel the GM called me into the office and showed me a flyer for a benefit in honor of Kaylee. The event is tomorrow at Jerry's Bait Shop, and it is a fashion show that will include a raffle. The proceeds will go to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society Hike for Discovery program. It will help donate and generate money for the team that is sponsoring Kay. The person that was hustling for the program was Kate Mahurin. I called her unexpectedly tonight. If it was against the rules I apologize but I felt compelled to tell her thank you. Please make a donation to her in Kaylee's name. It is easy and quick http://www.active.com/donate/hfdmida/KMahuri I ask you to donate whatever you can. Please go to Kate's link and take a look. Forward the link to family and friends and remember that this is for anyone fighting blood cancer but it's my daughters team and it means the world to me. I really have never asked for any donations but I am today. I can't tell you how great everyone is at L.L.S. , they help families such as ours in a time of need. If you would kindly donate to this link I would appreciate it, so would Kaylee. If you can make the Fashion Show tomorrow it would be nice. I'm not sure if you'll catch me there at any certain time because we happen to have our cheerleader banquet at the same time. I am going to float between the two but I can't guarantee what time I'll be there. Please get involved in a great cause!

Our Marine...

We had treatments today, again. Kaylee had to do a spinal tap and receive blood. The girls went early this morning and are still there. Kaylee is having blood transfused until 6 or 7 tonight. I went to the hospital sometime around 2 or 3 and brought lunch. Kaylee was coming out of her medical induced state when I arrived.

My nephew Matt Quijas is in town from the Marines. Matt and I had lunch today and then we headed to CMH to deliver lunch to Kaylee and Tammie. Matt stayed at our house when we were first diagnosed with leukemia in June. Since we were in Columbia and Matt was on leave it worked out perfectly. Matt is such a great young man. He recently turned 22 yr. old. He was a savior for our pets when we were stranded in Columbia.

I was so scared to leave Columbia when we first got diagnosed. I was ready to move there because I didn't know any better. When we were there, we were the only kid with cancer in the hospital. That should have told us something. Well I won't keep you any longer but I thought I would let you know how we are doing.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Kerry Full of Life and Faith

Meet Kerry Magaña, a typical 14-year-old young girl with lots of friends and siblings. Once, Magaña was more concerned with sibling rivalries and the intrigues and plays of her circle of close friends. She experimented with mascara and nurtured her long black hair. But that changed when she was diagnosed with ALL Leukemia in the fall of 2006. Now her pixie good looks and stature belie the tallness of her spirit.She had a relapse in December of 2007 and now the family faces a life and death situation. Doctors say that she has a 20 percent chance of survival given an appropriate bone marrow donor match, a possibility made difficult by the paucity of Hispanic and Latino registered donors. On Sunday, February 17, a three-hour bone marrow drive brought possible donors to Bales Baptist Church in the Northeast area of the city.Twenty-three people turned out despite the winter weather conditions to register as possible donors. Magaña was happy that people did come out despite the bad weather. “It is a little disappointing that more didn’t come but we are planning on having another donor drive. My goal is to get more people involved. I want to get the message out to everybody to get registered. It is not just for me but for a lot of other kids that need it too.”Even though she is fighting leukemia, Magaña does not dwell on her sickness. Instead her focus is on the other children that are in the hospital sick with leukemia or other types of cancer. “Before they told me I had cancer, I didn’t pay a lot of attention to the fact that other kids had cancer. It has opened a lot of things up. I see things differently. Just go to the hospital. There are lots and lots of kids and adults that are living with it and not a lot of people pay attention to it.”“My daughter has a big heart,” said Claudia Sabrera “She wants to help others and she goes to the hospital to visit the other children there. She is like a butterfly, she goes from room to room visiting and asking each one how they are. This is her way of showing her love for the people in the hospital.” Knowing that she would be losing her hair during her chemotherapy treatments, Magaña decided to cut her hair before the treatments so she could donate it for wigs for other children. Magaña donated 13 inches of hair and her sister Genesis donated 11 inches.She was disappointed by the reactions of some of her peers and struggles with the questions other children posed to her about why is she bald. “It hurts, even today it still hurts. I have people ask me if I am a boy or a girl. I was really sad when I lost my hair,” recalled Magaña.She feels that God has given her this disease for a purpose. She told Hispanic News that she thinks her purpose is to educate the Latino community about what a bone marrow donor is and how they can get registered in order to help others.Her mother understands how other Hispanics feel when they are asked to donate. “We don’t know what it means by bone marrow transplant. Hispanics believe that they are going to pull out a piece of bone to transplant. They believe they will be handicapped. … They think that if they do this they will die, but we will live. We do not have enough information to know what the transplant is about. The fight does not stop here. We will work hard to get the word out that my daughter needs a transplant. If God is willing he will send me a person who will help my daughter fight this disease,” said Sabrera.Potential donors must be between the ages of 18 and 60 years old and meet health guidelines. The screening test costs $52 and insurance does not cover the procedure. A small blood sample or swab of cheek cells is taken and tested to determine the donor’s tissue type. Potential donors also complete a brief health questionnaire and sign a consent form to have their tissue type listed on the Registry.Because tissue type is inherited, patients are likely to match someone of their same race and ethnicity. There is a need to recruit donors who are Hispanic/Latino, African American, American Indian, Alaska Naïve, Asian, Hawaiian or other Pacific Islanders.“We have to get people to understand the importance of becoming a bone marrow donor,” said Danielle Wilson, a volunteer at the registry desk. Wilson herself is a recipient of bone marrow and is happy that a person thought enough to register and help someone in need.“My donor is a Hispanic male who lives in Texas. I am overjoyed that somebody thought well enough to give of themselves. He said it was a painless process and he would do it all over again for somebody in need,” said Wilson.She knows the tough road that is ahead for Magaña but told Hispanic News that she will be there to help her in any way that she can. Before the leukemia struck her body, Magaña was a typical teenager, chatting with friends on the telephone, she liked to dance, she did her homework and she would help her mother around the house.“She came down with a fever and I took care of her in the house for a week but it would not go away. I did not imagine the worst. I took her to the doctor imagining that it was an infection. He advised me to take her in by Friday of that week if her fever did not go away. Her fever was so high when I took her to the doctor that they thought it was pneumonia and they gave her a pill treatment for five days,” said Sabrera.Kerry’s fever continued and after following back and forth with the doctor she was finally told to take her daughter to the hospital for tests. They ran tests and sent her home but had them come back the following day for the test results.Sabrera was unprepared for the news that she received as she sat on the bed next to her daughter. “It was like they were tearing my heart out. I felt crazy and I did not know what to do. It was such a wrenching pain, like your heart is being torn out slowly. I felt that my daughter is dying.”Another parent understands the emotions that Sabrera is experiencing. Michael Quijas' fifteen year-old daughter was diagnosis with leukemia. “It is almost like we have joined a fraternity of parents whose children are battling sickness. Anything that I can do to get the word out is what I have decided to do.” His daughter, Kaylee, does not need a bone marrow transplant. “She is getting ready to go into maintenance and then they start to see if it comes back or not and if it does come back, then we have to look into other options like bone marrow.”Until a disease hits a family, many people are unaware that the National Bone Marrow Registry is lacking in minority donors. “The registry needs minorities, especially Hispanics, and if we can get one person to sign up then we have added one more person on the list to help someone,” said LaGail Chism, recruiter specialist for the Bone Marrow Program.The registry is made up of about seven million people. Four million registrants are Caucasian with only about 460,000 registered Hispanics. “If a Caucasian person needs a bone marrow transplant they have an eighty percent chance of living but a Hispanic has an eighty percent chance of dying,” said Chism.Knowing that the statistics are stacked against Kerry, it makes Chism’s job even harder when she has to turn a potential donor away because of lack of identification. At the drive last week, a woman named Maria came to register but did not have any identification with her. She had no social security number, driver’s license or green card. Visibly upset and with tears streaming down her face, she told Hispanic News “they did not allow me to apply because I did not have papers. They told me it is the law. We had the intention but could not do it. We tried and it hurts not to be able to help.”“It is the requirements of the National Bone Marrow Donor Program,” explained Chism. “We have to have some identification in case they are a match for someone then we can locate them. That is how we locate them through social security or a driver’s license. It is heartbreaking and I wish we could come up with something that we can sign up willing donors. That is what we want, willing donors. It is hard watching them walk out and they may be a match for someone who needs it.”Chism is determined to investigate ways that someone like Maria may be able to register. Not only is the program a national program but it is also an international registry so there may be a way that individuals can register in their home countries. “I know there has to be some way we can work this out.”Unfortunately, a match has not been found for Magaña. They do have family in Honduras and there is the chance that one of them could be a match for her. “If they can get registered over there and if they are compatible with me, they will fly them over and have everything done. We may have to go looking for the other family members in Honduras if we can’t find a match here,” said Magaña.“It is terrible to know what will happen. The leukemia and cancer are so insidious they can hide in your system and then attack. It is a miracle that my daughter is here, knowing that she needs a transplant while other children are hospitalized waiting to die without a transplant. My child is not there right now and that is a miracle,” said Sabrera.People interested in more information or signing up for the registry can contact the National Marrow Donor Program at Heart of America Donor Center, 8700 State Line Road, Suite 340, Leawood, KS 66206 or call (913) 901-3100, (800) 366-6710.

Joe Arce and Debra Decoster

HISPANIC NEWS


Wednesday, February 20, 2008

All Good...

Kaylee made it through her chemo today. She was at the hospital all day until 6:00 pm. She takes her medicine like a champ. I was busy all day but made it to the hospital sometime around 3:00 to drop off food from Wendys. It was a quick trip but I made my way to clinic to show my love.

We are getting close to our final stage of this weekly chemo visit. Real soon we will take our medicine at home and go monthly to check for any flare up. I hope we move throught this quickly. I can't wait til Kaylee gets her weight, her routine, and her life back.

Kaylee and Chemo

Kaylee is at the hospital getting chemo today. It is an all day affair. She wore her comfy pajama bottoms and slippers. It is a home away from home, sort of. I would have never guessed that we would be regulars in the HemOc clinic.

I was looking a pictures from my birthday last year and thought how healthy we all looked. This year will be different because it seems a new life has started for us. Post cancer days. We were at Houston's on the Plaza last year and the dinner included my family, my sister's, and my sister Kim and Nick Vega. We did one last photo before we left the table and it was a good one. Everyone was surrounding me and it looked like they were there for me. All the kids had their arms around my shoulders. This picture means so much because it reminds me of one of those pictures you'll look at in the future and go "wow, that was a long time ago." The kids look young and us parents look like - parents. Pictures are great.

If anyone knows their school nurse and would like to inform them about a seminar the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society is putting together that educates them on the signs of cancer, the methods of handling such incidents, and the effects of having kids going through treatment, feel free to pass the number along. The person in charge is Micka and she can be reached at 913.262.1515 and those who attend get educational credits. More importantly it is so comforting to know that there is someone at your school who might be able to look past what most of us would think is just the flu and catch something like leukemia or any other cancer. Please consider passing the info, another set of eyes and any education that might help our children is big in my book!

Monday, February 18, 2008

Break the Darkness...

Kay is feeling much better these days. She is starting to get back to that comfortable state. I think we do the long chemo treatment on Wednesday. She gets chemo then the flush. I hope we have little side effects. At this point its so hard to judge how Kays body will react. We need to take our medicine on a routine basis but it would be nice to get a break for more than a week. Treatment is our priority.

Today was an OK day. I stayed up too late last night and getting up this morning was a challenge of sorts. If I see Kaylee's light on then I stay up later. I never want Kaylee to fight the night alone. Kaylee has been sleeping longer and getting up later. Such a change from a week or so ago. I feel better knowing that Kaylee has one of us up to keep her company if she needs it. Night time can be a lonely time. Night time is a little more fun when your Dad is Michael Quijas and he resides in a room just a few steps from your door. I will go for the late night food run. Coffee if you can handle it. Hell, I've been known to take a late night cruise just to break the darkness!

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Bigger things to worry about...


I was thinking about how certain things or circumstances don't really get me upset as they once did. I sit here ready to give examples and I can't think of any. Lets just say that there's almost nothing that can upset me. As long as it doesn't threaten me, I'm fine. Something about this sickness.


Since we started this recovery process I'm convinced that there are so many other things in life to get worked up over. Bad news, tragedy, and disppointment might be a few but petty issues aren't going to cloud my days. I choose to focus on good things. If something doesn't pose a danger or a need for immediate action then I pass these days on any kind of conflict. This makes me feel like I've grown as a person. Who would think that something like sickness could make you grow as human. It has opened my eyes to for the better.


I went to a Bone Marrow Drive this morning. The drive was for Kerry Magana. She is fourteen and battling leukemia like Kaylee. Just like Kaylee, she has A.L.L.. Kerry relapsed and needs a marrow transplant. I battled the weather and made it down for the drive. I was connected to the event by circumstances of health. If that doesn't make sense or the wording was wrong, I was also connected by my mild participation in promoting this important event. I received the info for the drive and had Kerry on the Hispanic radio on Friday, in the Hispanic News Daily Newspaper this last week and posted in charitable organizations across town. I felt compelled to help in one way or another. I feel her family's pain.


So what did you today? Well I hope you stay happy and conflict keeps away. If you need to find clarity in your life then look for good things even if it means sifting through things you think are bad. I would recommend that you stay from the events that guided me to see things different. But if heartbreak and saddness does appear I suggest you take whatever good you can find and try to do something great with it. Treat your family well and try to contribute to your community. You might make a difference.



Saturday, February 16, 2008

Too little too late...

I dropped a $100.00 bill last night. I was at the Hy-Vee located at 77th & Stateline when I pulled money out of my pocket and unknowingly dropped a $100.00 bill on the floor. Some guy tapped me on the shoulder and handed me my money. I was shocked, told him thank you and he left. I was stunned for a moment. This young guy gave me money. No one saw me dropp this money and he could of easily kept it. He didn't.

I was so upset that I didn't give him my card, my number, or I didn't purchase his items. I was shocked for a moment, a moment too long because this person walked out the door. When it dawned on me that I didn't say the appropriate thank you it was too late. I was so mad at my self.

I could not believe that someone could do something so nice. I hope he is blessed with incredible Karma from yesterday on. This act of kindness was meaningful to me for several reasons. I felt blessed for moment that someone would do such a nice thing for me. It showed me that there is good out there. It was an example of good vs. bad decisions. It was an example of doing the right thing without being obligated to do the right thing. It was deeper for me than it might have been before our sickness.

If someone drops their money give it to them. If you need to tell someone thank you, do it before its too late. If you do good today then it will come back to you tomorrow. Good night!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

I have to get home...

My bank was held-up yesterday. The bank sits directly behind my house and it is a place I frequent almost daily. A sad and scary situation for my ladies in the bank. To say I'm paranoid would be strong but I have to be observant about my surroundings at all times. I have to make it home daily. I say that because as much as I'm appreciated at home I'm also needed at home. The thought crossed my mind, what if I was in the bank? I'm not going to sound crazy and say I would be a hero but my ass is going to make it home. If that means smacking a robber around than so be it.

I mentioned before that Tammie has always said be careful when I go out and it never registered. Well it does these days, and I intend to make it home. It is scary that someone could come in your place of work and harm you. Thinking about that angers me. Our life is challenging right now with two of us juggling appointments, admissions, and care. I think how hard it would be for one parent if you had to do it alone. Today I look at all angles. The bottom line is I have to get home every day and no one is going to stop me!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Spinal Tap...

We are at the hospital this morning getting a spinal tap, chemo, and fluids. Kaylee is count dependant so we are having our blood checked right now. Count dependant means that there certain levels or numbers that have to be before we can get chemo. Her platelets and her ANC (immune system) are the numbers we are dependant on this morning. We wait to find out if we stay all day or come another day. Kaylee's treatment if she gets it today has her getting pumped with fluids for 6 hours after the chemo. I guess you might call it a flush. The flush gets the chemo out of her little body. We normally stay over night for this treatment but they said we can do outpatient.

I went to bed at 3:30 am and woke up at 6:30, I am tired. We got Christian on the bus at 7:00 and we headed here. I am meeting a restaurant/bar called Charlie Hoopers today. They want me to install my TV's. I kind of like packaging the Brooksider with something else in Brookside. We only have the Plaza to work with the Brookside location. I am busy trying to get the Power & Light District lined up and installed. We are busy installing and building.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Anyone Reading My Words...


Kaylee is feeling much better since yesterday. She is walking and the steroids must be leaving her system because her normal appetite is returning. I am so thankful to get my Kay back. If you have never been by a child on steroids it is hard. When I heard that they can be fussy I thought, "Oh that's cute" alittle attitiude. Well let me tell you it is difficult. They're more then fussy, and it's not cute. It seems like it should be easy to overlook the grumpiness but it's hard.

We keep progressing forward and it feels good to be done with this and that but I wish we could fast forward and get it over with. Cancer be gone! Say a prayer for my kid if you would. I keep hoping that my child can get back to normal. I've said it is difficult a million times and another million still couldn't convey the feeling of wanting to get this disease, this word, and this moment gone with. Imagine thinking how you would cope daily if you saw your child getting sick, losing their hair, and crying from pain. Throw in that friends aren't coming around to visit as they once did. On a lighter side, imagine your kid not needing new school clothes or supplies for an entire year because they have no immune system or strong legs to get them to their classes or through the day. My heart breaks thinking that anyone I know or any one reading my words would be put through that. It is a tough time for me and my family these days but we will be back to normal. Goodnight!

Monday, February 11, 2008

Did You See The Paper Today?












http://www.kansascity.com/business/emerging/story/485477.html

About the business: The company, which has five employees, installs TVs above urinals in men’s restrooms and in vanity mirrors of women’s restrooms in restaurants. The channel plays advertisements along with the restaurant menu, specials and events. About 100 LCD screens are in operation across the area.




Owners: Michael Quijas and Zach Lund




Owners’ roles: “My responsibilities have me overseeing new construction, sales and research and development,” Quijas said. “Zach helps facilitate a smooth-running back office, takes care of the financials of the company and helps plan the strategy.”




How long did it take you to start your business:
“I started my business in April 2005. It was called In Ad Advertising. My business was putting plastic billboards on grocery carts. I sat for weeks waiting for the green light from a grocery store chain. My downtime felt like an eternity. So I started exploring new ideas and came up with the TV idea. I shifted gears (that fall) and put the grocery cart project on the back burner.
“I realized that restaurant owners were more likely to let me install digital screens in their restrooms compared to the old worn-out poster boards that indoor billboard companies commonly use. I found a new business off the old business. Fuel American Made Bar & Grill and Raoul’s Velvet Room at 119th and Metcalf (in Overland Park) were the first two restaurants to participate.”




How did you come up with this idea?
“I was involved in the indoor advertising industry in San Diego. This is where a company puts a sign on the back of a restroom stall door or above the urinals.
“When I was at Best Buy one afternoon, I was observing all the TVs on display when something hit me. The screens all had the same thing playing. This piqued my curiosity. So I asked the clerk how something like this is made possible. The clerk took me to the video switch and showed me how it all worked. That was the afternoon that my wheels started turning.”




What challenges have you faced?
“The sacrifice my family made for this dream was substantial. We couldn’t always afford to do the things that other families were doing. I’m embarrassed, but my health insurance lapsed more than a couple of times for lack of payment. Two months after re-enrolling, my 14-year-old daughter was diagnosed with leukemia.
“Appointments, sales and deadlines totally got lost. They didn’t matter. But the bills would continue to come. I knew I had to come up with a system that could have me juggle my day shift at Children’s Mercy Hospital with my daughter and somehow include time for business. My wife did nights at CMH, and I took over the days. I set up an office out of CMH. I worked in the room, in the hall, in the cafeteria. This helped me get back into the swing of things without leaving the most important girl in my life alone.”
How did this challenge affect you and your business?
“It has given me great appreciation for people, families and life. I am more aware of the fact that I have no idea what anyone is going through. I don’t know if someone is crashing financially; I don’t know if the guy driving slowly is on his way to sit next to his sick kid. All I know is that business and personal matters do connect. If you are lacking on the business side, it can affect your family. If you are unhappy at home, it can affect your work.”
What advice would you give to someone starting a business?
“Believe in yourself. Take each mistake as a lesson. Remember that the road will curve from time to time, and it can also get bumpy. I have learned that each obstacle or adverse situation has made me grow and has delivered me to where I am.”




Kerri Fivecoat-Campbell, special to The Star



Sunday, February 10, 2008

Appreciated Presence...

I feel needed. I feel wanted. I feel appreciated. I feel important. I feel loved. I feel bad. I feel obligated. I feel dedicated. I feel devoted. I feel scared. I feel humbled. I feel anger. I feel exhausted. I feel loyalty. I feel crazy. I feel loneliness. I feel strong. I feel weak. I feel tired. I feel fat. I feel fear. I feel happiness. I feel sorrow. I feel shocked. I feel emptiness. I feel sick. I feel short-changed. I feel blessed. I feel upset. I feel sorry. I feel ugly. I feel mad. I feel love.




I feel so many emotions for my child who is downstairs crying as I write. I want this to end. No parent should have to watch their child suffer. Giving us a name such as cancer should be enough but this discomfort and uncontrollable pain takes its toll. We hope for a shift in our day soon.



I was driving this afternoon and found myself thinking how important I am to this family. I've had many years to think this but I really never thought about it until now. Each member of my family is important to me but I never really considered my role. Sure I've given thought about my financial contribution and even thought about my role as a father and the example I need to set as a father. The scary fact is, I carry us day to day. Tammie runs our household but I bring the money in. I make sure we have the necessities.



What if something happened to me? Who would carry Kaylee to the restroom? How would she make it to the table to eat? Who would put the food on the table? I know there would be solutions but I get worried. As a young man I questioned if anyone would really miss me if I was gone, today I know how appreciated my presence is. So looking back I may have been confused what my value or worth was as a kid, but today I know how important I am and how much I'm appreciated. Life has a funny way of showing you things. Once where there was uncertainty is now clarity but at what price?

The 5 Minute Blog...

I am heading to baseball this morning with Christian. We have baseball starting to gear up for our spring season. I feel very attached to our team due to the Columbia experience with Kaylee's diagnosis. They are teammates, friends, and family.

Christian is moaning in his bed because he says it is too early for any one to wake and play baseball. He has a point, but obligations are obligations. I can't believe how cold it is outside. This winter has been extremely cold. I can't wait until the spring and summer season. This time has passed rather quickly. Halloween seems like it was last week, and Christmas was yesterday.

I wish I could tell you that Kaylee is running laps but she isn't. We hope that whatever is in her causing pain leaves soon. We never thought she would have so much trouble as this treatment thing winds down. Kaylee will have to do dosages of steroids and chemo for the next 2 years but at smaller dosages. Hopefully this pain will go back to where ever it came from. Have a good day and enjoy your family.

The Weight of Love...

I went to the gym today after I found myself thinking how important it is that I be able to lift Kaylee or any other family member if the duty is called. Unfortunately for Kaylee that time has come for her. If she leaves her bed for any reason it is me who has the honor of taking her. I found my self feeling weak as I lifted this fourth straight day.

It makes me feel so good that Kaylee has her dad to do the lifting. It is scary to think what Tammie and Kaylee would do if I was gone or absent. They would make adjustments but being here makes me appreciate those roles again. Tammie has been sleeping with Kaylee and I have been lifting her. ROLES OF A PARENT!

It has been hard mentally the last few days. Kaylee is hurting from the pain and she is bored from the pain. Her only option is laying in bed and it is getting old. We get to the dining room table for breaks but that just isn't enough. She is getting messages from friends that are shopping, buying cars, and leaving for work. Pain on top of pain. But what do you do?

I caught myself looking at children in the grocery store today. I was scanning the little kids thinking how I never thought I would be carrying my fifteen year old girl when she was their age. The fact is that I was oblivious to the fact that anything could go whacky with my child's health. It just couldn't happen to me or mine. But it did!

We will get pass this moment, we will be fine. Bailee Woods came by the house today and it was so nice to see her and watch her move around. She looks so good! The last time we saw her she was in the hospital and barely conscious. Today she came by to see her good friend, Kaylee. When Bailee left she jump in the drivers seat of the car and drove her family down the street. I was so happy the Woods' came by today because I feel so attached to them seeing us go through the same kind of things.

Friday, February 8, 2008

Hot Gravel...

I feel like documenting our last few days today because I never want to forget these days. As much as I want to get this time period behind us I feel compelled to remember this moment for as long as I live.

Kaylee has been battling pain for the last few days. We have never encounter pain as bad as this round. It has been happening for 5 days. Her feet feel like she is walking on hot gravel. She can no longer walk and I have to carry her to her destination. We think it is the steroids but we are not sure. She can't sleep because the pain keeps her a wake. She is past crying and moans continously throughout the night. I watch the discomfort every morning.

Tammie has slept with Kaylee for 3 nights. She is helpless and can only watch. Tammie has tried wash rags on the head, heating pads, and rubbing. There is absolutely nothing we can do. Kaylee is so beautiful. She says it hurts her to see us not be able to lend that magic hand. She said she couldn't imagine watching her child suffer like we do. How powerful is that? She said as bad as it is for her, she feels for us. Beautiful, beautiful child.

It is amazing how you become immune to a situation. You have to to survive. I watch this stuff everyday and have learned to walk out the door and start my day. I have to admit that it is hard to concentrate when these tough times hit. I have to face the day and feed this family. So if you see me on the street and I seem distant please forgive me. I might be walking and talking but my mind is with a child who is battling sickness.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

The Tony Day Family Needs Our Help...

Family in Crisis
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE
Contact:Philip Graham
westportglass@hotmail.com
913.671.8847
February 7,2008 - Anthony (Tony) Dale Day died tragically on Saturday February 2nd following a brain hemorrhage. Tony Day was a hardworking family man whose untimely death has put his family in a financial crisis. His family could use the help of our community in this time of need, so please visit http://tonydayfamily.googlepages.com/

He is survived by his fiancée Cynthia Walburn, his daughter Ashley, son Mikall, granddaughter Elise, and son-in-law Andrew. Anthony was also a remarkable father to Cynthia’s children Brooke, Shelbee, and Allyssa. He was preceded in death by his sister Kathy but is survived by his sisters Becky and Kelly, brother Andrew, step-sisters Janie and Deanna, step-brother Billy, mother Rosalie, and father Jack. His tremendous heart and compassion were evident in his large extended family. He unselfishly served as a father figure to numerous other children of the Jurczyk family. An alumnus of Willard High School and resident of Independence, Anthony was taken far too soon and will be missed dearly. He chose to be an organ donor and has already helped the lives of others.
The funeral will be held at 1:00 on February 8th at the Day Family Funeral Home of Marshfield. Visitation will be at 12:00 on the same day.
Donations to benefit Cindy and the children can be made at any CU Community Credit Union location or mailed to:

Tony Day Benefit
CU Community Credit Union
1017 E. Republic RoadSpringfield, MO 65807

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

I'm moving on from my blog. It served a healthy purpose from day one and I appreciate the outlet it provided. Today I can't find that need to confess, share, and unload. So instead of writing my blog I'm going to write a book on my site here. Crazy, maybe. But different and challenging. I'm going to create something that will occupy my time at those moments when I need it. So stay tuned and hop on board if you want. This is my story.


Delayed Mugshot...


My business profile in the KC Star was pushed back to next Tuesday. This week it looks like a landscaper edged me out. I'll let you know when it is in the paper. I thought it was going to be in this week's business section of emerging business but it looks like they didn't run emerging business. I guess my mugshot will have to wait another week.

Kaylee is plugging away. This chemo is the painful stuff so she is fighting aching in her bones and jaw. I forgot that this was the painful treatments. Our last few months were the treatments that produced sickness, unfortunately we had to revisit the painful stuff again. I hope she feels better soon. Kaylee is almost to the maintenance phase of treatments. I think that is right around March 1st. The maintenance phase is where it slows down with treatments and we see if the cancer stays away for good. Say a prayer for us that my child doesn't have to endure anymore mental and physical pain. We want this to be in our rear view mirror.

Have a good day and lets hope no one will ever have to write about cancer, children, or chemotherapy ever again.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Bored and Tired...

01/28/08 - Hello there. I am sitting in a conference call right now and bored to death. I've decided to write a blog because I'm going crazy listening to these IT guys talk a lot of foreign terms I know nothing about. So here I am.

I had a good weekend. We did absolutely nothing. It was relaxing. We picked up a ping pong table and had fun with that. I'm boring today, not much to say. I just left the conference call because all that mumbo jumbo gives me a headache. I decided to go to my office and lay down and finish my blog. If I offend anyone by laying down on my couch at 3:30, I'm sorry. I can and I am.

Did you do anything exciting this weekend? The weather was beautiful. I'm going to stop this entry because I have zero to say right now and I feel this conversation is going cheesy. Forgive me and I'll talk later.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Friday, January 25, 2008

Light at the End...

I met with Blue Cross this afternoon and we discussed my best options for insuring my first 10 kids. As I was sitting there listening to detailed coverage I couldn't help but think how many times I have heard that insurance medical lingo. I never had any interest in that verbiage and I still don't. It was always Chinese before and still is. The difference is those things they talk about are things that can happen. Max coverage, catastrophic circumstances, and deductibles. I realized how it used to be so boring and irrelevant. Today it hits home even if it's boring. It's relevant.

It reminds me when you're young and people older then you always talk about insurance coverage and how you can't drive this car because you're not covered under the insurance. This always sounded so stupid because I wasn't going to wreck or nothing was going to happen to ME. I now know what they were talking about. Those stories are real and those circumstances can happen. You just pray it doesn't happen to you.

To think anyone loves their kid as much as me is impossible. We all think that right? I sometimes think that if everyone knew how much I loved my kid then everyone would know the pain. Well I hope we all love our kids that way. I know we all feel love towards our kids equally but when you start taking inventory because you think you might lose that love it is hard on you.

I look at Kay and I have so much admiration for her. She hasn't been to school this year. We are in our second semester and she has only walked in the school doors once this year. Her purpose there was unrelated to studies. We have been spending much of our time with children and teenagers that are missing their hair. Her sweet little head is growing hair. Her legs are starting to get strong and they are gaining weight daily. Our immune system is at a strong level and we feel better. We can see light at the end of the tunnel.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

A Great Organization...

We had a doctor appointment today. Kaylee is doing great and they said she should be able to attend school at the end of March. It was nice to hear that. I looked at her today and felt sorry for her. How does a child comprehend, justify, or accept that they are having to handle things that most of us never will. I've never heard her complain or say why me. That doesn't mean she doesn't think it. Hell I've never been through anything like it, but I have had experiences in my life that made me say "why me." I can't imagine what goes through her head.

I made a video promoting the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society's Hike for Discovery program. It is an event that has Kaylee as a Honoree Patient. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJPx_LKWe14 If anyone is interested in finding out more info please call Daniel at 913.262.1515.

My next video is going to be for Team in Training. This event is awesome, I look forward to participating soon. Sandy Duncan is the person to talk to at the LLS if you need info on this awesome program. Both events helps fund research and offers families such as mine a helping hand in their time of crisis.

I encourage everyone to call the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society and ask if you can help them in any way. Their number is 913.262.1515. Tell them Michael Quijas referred you.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Power & Light District...

Writing twice in one day, a first in a long time. I installed McFadden's in the Power & Light today. The women's restroom should be done tomorrow. I am pleased to have such a hopping new restaurant and bar. The crowds are enormous, and the atmosphere is electric. I should do really good there.

I am excited to announce that I was offered a big beautiful building downtown that I can project advertising on. It is in the heart of the Power & Light District. This project should be appealing to advertisers who want prime real estate in this new district. I"ll let you know how it goes.
I encourage everyone to check out the Power & Light if you get a chance. It is incredible. Outdoor concerts, bowling alley, restaurants , and theatres. Until you see it, it is hard to explain. Well I guess I'll go for now. Goodnight!

KC Star...

Hello. I wanted to check in and say hello. I have been busy getting back into the swing of things since the conclusion of our admissions. We started a new cycle of treatments with Kaylee. This round is steroids and shots. Although it is less time in the hospital, it is torture for Kaylee.

The steroids affect your mood, your eating, and your appearance. There has been a change in mood and eating but no physical difference. I hate that she fears the shots. I hate not being able to take the fear away. We are with her on every step of the journey, but she is on her own with the taking the pain part.

I was thinking how important this blog was in helping me during our dark days. At first I was concerned how I might have came across with all the whining and whimpering, but it was my release for six months. It was so helpful to me and my sanity that I will never apologize. It didn't take me long to find my therapeutic release and I am grateful. I look at the alternatives and I admit that someone could easily indulge into something a lot less healthier then a blog. The pain and scare are unbelievable when it deals with your child.

I registered my non-profit, 10 Kids Insured, with the state and now I am filling out my 501(c) 3 paper work with the IRS. The wait for approval can be long, so I am running my foundation through the Truman Heartland foundation. This wonderful operation will expedite my cause without a long wait. It is very exciting. I am setting up meetings with insurance companies that see the potential and want to get on board with this wonderful cause. Different health care foundations are contacting me as well expressing interest. It seems like this idea to help kids with health care might just work.

InAd TV is doing great as well. I am installing McFadden's and Stroud's this week. We received the green light from the Power & Light district last Thursday. I am supposed to be Downtown in four hours. Ouch! The Stroud's install is one that gets me out of the Bar and Nightclub circuit and lands me into a family style atmosphere. Hooray! I like my bars and nightclubs but it will be nice to unveil my product & service in such a renowned place as Stroud's.

There will a story on me next Tuesday in the Business section of the KC Star. It is a section called Emerging Business, and they do a Q & A with entrepreneurs and my number was called. I am privileged and honored. It took long enough. But timing is everything, right? I hope I sound OK in the article. Take a look at the article and keep me in mind if you ever do an ad campaign. I hope to talk soon, thank you for every thing.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

From My Friend...

Philippians 4:13 --- I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

The road to success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Jobs. But, if you have a spare called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called Success.

Do you ever see something and know it was a message designed just for you. It might be called signs, a light bulb, or a premonition. Whatever it is you need to recognize it. I'm so scared to move forward with 10 Kids Insured. I am moving forward, but to do something that everyone tells me I can't becomes wearing. I have my crew around me rallying and I have family and friends supporting this dream but everyone else say's "If it's never been done then it can't be done" I beg to differ.

When I started InAd TV I had several people say the same thing. Today I have endured nearly three years of business and it is growing. I think that it is appropriate that InAd TV will get to birth a new way of thinking about children who are in households that make $1.00 to much an hour at Walmart to qualify for adequate healthcare for their children. It probably does sound outrageous that a man is proposing he use public restrooms from across the city to fund healthcare for our own children, Kansas City Children. 10 Kids Insured!

September 2007 Newsletter from KC Ad Club

Special "Help a Member Out" Section


If you can help him, he can help you. Fellow Ad Club member Michael Quijas needs your help. His daughter was recently diagnosed with leukemia, and he and his family are spending much of their time at the hospital. Michael runs a small business, In Ad TV, which plays 15- to 30-second videos in Kansas City's premier restaurants and nightclubs.


Because he understandably has little time to spend on finding new business, he is offering free advertising to any Ad Club members who have produced material. If interested please contact Michael at 816.651.9471 or 877.446.2388 or visit http://www.inadtv.com/.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Coping Mechanism...

I was walking past the computer this morning and thought about coping mechanisms. I used this computer as a tool for the longest time. I had to get by and I found that writing was my tool. In December I wrote 51 blogs. This release or outlet made it possible for me to get it out. I needed to get out the built up pain and confusion. This release made it possible to function. I am grateful.

So many times I spent hours writing to pass the time. This was therapeutic and soothing. I could have ran to the local pub and spilled my guts to the guy next me but I chose to write. In the process I may have bored, depressed, or burdened you. But I did it for me in a healthy format. For this I am thankful. How many times do you get to look at a piece of machinery or technology and get to say thank you? Well that's what I'm saying this morning. Thank you to my computer for being there when I needed you. I couldn't image having to do battle like we did and do without something to alleviate the pain.

If you remember, I was prescribed countless meds to assist in the insomnia, depression, and anxiety. Looking back, it was my laptop who stood in there for me. Some might find this writing to be bizaar and odd but it is my pill that helps me get through. Although I haven't written with the passion I once did, that's OK. I am finding other outlets these days to occupy my thoughts and time. If I could pass any wisdom or advice it would be this. When times find you at a low and out of it, reach for something that is healthy. I could have grabbed a bottle of liquor or something worse, but I decided to entrust in my computer. Weird I know it, but today I can say that no only did it help me survive without going nutts it gave me a script in hand of all that we went through. The countless hours writing has produced something tangible that I will share with myself and others who want to know "how'd you do it"

Excess Inventory...


I have to tell everyone about something that happened today. I had an appointment with Operation Breakthrough at 9:00 am and I was blown away. This organization is so incredible. They perform magic every day with the assistance they provide to working families who need a helping hand. I toured the facility and had the opportunity to meet the staff. This dedicated team of volunteers and staff have been doing this for 38 years, and they do it well.
If you are wondering what I am doing with "10 Kids Insured" please let me explain. I am in the process of setting up a non-profit 501c3. This organization will provide medical insurance to 10 uninsured kids a month who live in the metro area. I intend to give children an opportunity at health. I want these kids to visit a doctor when they need to and I want them to know that the bill is taken care of. I am going to team up with an organization who can help me find children that need the help. I am so excited about this project and the potential it has. I may have found my calling in life.
I had so many people tell why it wouldn't work that it became a joke. It wasn't until I started taking the final steps that everyone has started to say, "He can do it!" To tell you how far this has gone, I am negotiating with different Insurance Co.'s to have a health care product just for my organization. This tailored policy will help with copays and deductibles. They are talking. This is exciting.
For those who wonder how I will fund it, I am taking the percentage of ads that would go unsold on my network (industry standard) and unloading them for a cause instead of concert tickets and limousines. These entertainment luxuries are commonly passed around for trade out in the advertising industry. I am doing something highly unusual. I am not in the party mood these days so I elect to donate the excess inventory to a cause I am passionate about. The uninsured kids.
Please pass the word that anyone who does business with InAd TV will be helping out the community. I will take that ad money and insure kids. Please help me make this a success. I can do it and I can make a difference, so can you!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Life Works Best When You Do Things Unlike The Rest...

I can hardly sleep. It's not the stress like it was before but excitement. My new non-profit project "10 Kids Insured" is starting to get legs of its own. I meet with Operation Breakthrough on Monday. They are an organization here in town that does wonderful things for low income families. They said they could provide me families who need insurance. These families are often dealing with tough times and this helping hand from "10Kids Insured" would be priceless.

This cause feels right. I have made the decision to go forward even though I could research two more years, contemplate one more additional year, then maybe proceed. This would seem like the normal route I might have taken in the past, but today I have a different mind set. I will launch, make some mistakes, and learn as I go. Why wait for all the planets to line up. If I string this out then I might not ever do it.

If Operation Breakthrough can help provide the kids then a lot of worry is off my plate. I had so many people tell me that I couldn't proceed without the kids. I always believed that if I started on the path to make my dream a reality then all unknowns would find a way to work themselves out. But can you believe that someone would could find reasons not to do this? I mean I could find a million reasons not to get out of bed. But that's not me. I want to be the guy at the end of the day, who can get into bed and sleep soundly knowing that he is helping Kansas City kids stay healthy! In addition to that, I will be providing peace of mind to families who worried about health care for their loved ones. Who knows, I might make atleast one person sleep soundly as well. Life works best when you do things unlike the rest.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Kip Cleveland...

Do you like your job? I ask you that question because I absolutely love what I do. I'm sure that there's times that I've hated it. But today I love it. I love it when I hear people talk about In Ad TV. This is awesome for me because it's like my idea that got into the main stream. It was my pencil and eraser that penned out the name on a piece of scratch paper.

I sit in my office sometimes and listen to people make sales calls. They say I'm so and so from In Ad TV. I get a kick out of that. To hear that this thing has moved from the garage and into the real world is an honor. I think about the times I sat alone with this business on my back, weighing me down, and not knowing if this dream was really worth it. Today is has bought me freedom. It is my partner!

I suggest that you follow your heart and instinct if you should ever do your own thing. The forest gets pretty thick and resolution seems to disappear. I say this because I believe everyone has a part of them that would love to start their own business. This business might be a hobby that has potential. So many people I know get into a position in life where they think they are stuck. Stuck with that dry paycheck, crusty co-workers, and a miserable drive each morning. But let me remind you that you are not stuck. You can do what you want. Hard work might lay ahead of you, an investment of time may be due, but success is there for the taking. My drive comes from times that I would have a "NORMAL JOB" and hear my fellow co-workers bounce ideas off of each other for that next big thing.

I remember a gentleman named Kip Cleveland in Los Angeles. He was an engineer by schooling but was selling auto's in LA with me. He would always say "there has to be something better out there. That one thing that can take care of everything." He was referring to an invention, a service, a song. Anything that could let you enjoy yourself and pay your bills.

Kip quite and disappeared. Rumors floated around that he was driving a meals on wheels truck. Sure enough, I was standing on the lot waiting for a customer, when I heard a loud horn sound. I turn to notice a Hot Dog Truck or Coffee Truck, something pull in. There was Kip behind the steering wheel. He had made the leap. He is pushing out a product and turning a buck. He made the move and did what most others can't or won't do. Well I have to go but enjoy your day at whatever you do. Some of us will be putting toppings on hot dogs, others will be spending time in the restroom adjusting TV screens, and you might be answering someone elses phone. Let's just be happy that we are doing something and we have somewhere that we have to be.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

A Hand...



Me and Kaylee went to a late movie last night. We saw a movie called Walk Hard: The Dewy Cox Story. It was funny and entertaining. It could have been any movie really, just getting Kay out is an enjoyment. We have it figured out, Tuesday night is going to be slow as far as a attendance and that is the perfect setting for us. Our immune system is building up but it is low and slow. Our new treatments start this morning. Kay and Tammie are at the hospital as I write. I guess we had to go early so they could perform an EKG. Columbia & CMH both forgot to give her an EKG at the start of this. They are supposed to be monitoring her little heart. The liver concerns may have made them overlook this procedure. A heart scan. Who would of ever predicted?

I'd much rather be buying shoes for the bowling league or pom pom's for cheerleading. But this is our life for now and we'll go to the doctors office four hours before our scheduled appointment if we have to. I have to think that good has come from this. I mean, what would I be doing right now if I wasn't dealing with cancer in my child? Probably cruising through life without much thought of where I want to be and who is important. Not appreciating as much as one should.

I am going to embrace the fact that bad things can happen to great kids. Good things can happen to bad people. There's no rhyme or reason to life. It's recognizing the signs and course you're supposed to take. I'm going to make our experience a helpful one. It will help make me a better person and it will be the drive for me to help those who need a hand. Everyone needs a hand from time to time. May my experience be the extended hand to others.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

The Market...


I wanted to tell everyone that I finished my book. It is called "One - 80" My First One Hundred 80 days. My Child's Fight Against Leukemia. One eighty refers to the six months we've been fighting and the U-turn our life took.
I am going to self publish my book. I'm doing it for me and Kaylee. I'm sure it wouldn't sell anyways but I'm going to market it through my site, screens, and media connections. I think I'm going to do it through http://www.lulu.com/ . I think that is an easy way to do it. I can put it together and work on it at night at my leisure. I'll keep you posted.
The Star called today and I am getting featured next Tuesday or Friday in a business spotlight piece. I am honored and privileged. Thank you. I've been wondering when the press might notice my TV network. I'm the only guy placing TV's above urinals in KC. My Tv's aren't compared to the competition or any other product. I own the market in KC. That's powerful stuff. How often does one get to say he has no competition and an open market. So it goes back to the thing, where's the press been? Well I'm ready and honored that anyone has taken notice. I'll let you know when my story is featured. Goodnight!

Monday, January 7, 2008

WWW.10KIDSINSURED.COM

I'm back! I feel like I abandoned my blog. The truth is I've been extremely busy working on getting my latest project launched. I am providing free health care coverage to 120 kids for the next 12 months. I have been working hard trying to get this insurance project off the ground. My organization is going to be called http://www.10kidsinsured.com/. The website will be a .org but I haven't started the starter web page and I'm to lazy to do it right now. I have the insurance company ready to take part. I have my first sponsor lined up to facilitate the first 10 kids. I have the the bank who will provide the escrow account for my endeavor. All I need now is a P.R. firm that will believe in me and my program and help launch it through some Press/Media Releases. I will not be able to pay for the exposure but I can deliver clients to their door if done right. http://www.10kidsinsured.com/

I haven't been able to write lately. I have writers block. This happens when things are going good. So I can't apologize. We are out of the hospital and our break has been over two weeks. Kaylee is relaxed and feeling good. Our next phase begins tomorrow. I thank you all for the prayers and kindness we have received over the last six months. The power of prayer is strong. Our next phase includes steroids and it has Kaylee worried. The last time we did steroids it affected her taste and it was tough. Weight loss, appetite loss. Tough loss. A prayer or two if you have it in you, please.

I am excited about the kids insurance. I feel passionate about the cause. So many people confessed to me that they too had an insurance problem here and there. Gaps in enrollment, No money, or a lost job and the inability to afford Cobra. I wasn't alone. The embarrassment is the same for all of us. I will help ensure that children have the ability to see a doctor when needed. I will give piece of mind to worried parents and kids. 10kidsinsured.com.

My real drive is that people say I can't do this or that. I can do whatever I think. I can put in place a TV channel in the restroom. I can put TV's in clothing. I can insure 120 kids a year in 50 different cities if I want. I can be part of a solution or part of a problem. I choose to do great things!

Thursday, January 3, 2008

A Normal Night...

I'm watching the Kansas Jayhawks play in the Orange bowl tonight. It is 8:39 PM and me and Kaylee are going to the movies at 9:20 tonight. Our movie is going to be Juno. I love going to the movies and this one will be exceptionally special since Kay hasn't been able to attend a showing due to her low immune system. We are gambling that no one will be in the theatre because it is a week night, late, and KU Football is taking place.

We have to be cautious about our surroundings daily. This outing is a start to the good times that lay ahead of us. It is especially special to me because I've been Kaylee's movie partner since her first movie experience. That first movie was Lion King in 1993 or '94. I remember it was at the theatre's located at Midland & 435. We made it only half way through due to the loudness. Although it was incomplete, it was the beginning of a date that has lasted over a dozen years.

We did it! The movie was good and the theatre was empty. We had us some popcorn, nachos, and a couple drinks. I was touched by the experience. I was honored to be there next to my baby girl who deserves to have as much movie time as any other fifteen year old. Boy is it easy to take life's simple pleasures for granted. We sat in the front of the theatre and enjoyed our movie. Kaylee picked her seat out and we had a wonderful Daddy Daughter night. There wasn't a place I'd rather be but next to this child who has waited six long months to attend a screening.

Parenting is a honor. Kaylee didn't ask if I wanted to go, she advised me that we would be attending the 9:20 screening of Juno. I never blinked or batted an eye. She knew that I wouldn't and that made me feel great. The night was good for me mentally as it was for her too. I let everything go- finances, work, and worrying. It was all about Kaylee and that's what I really needed. A normal night with a normal fifteen year old.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

1:00 AM 01-01-08...

It's a New Year, I'm not sure if that's capitalized or not, but it will be tonight. I am comfortable and thankful that we are home. I'm in my comfortable bed watching the movie, Monster, with Charlize Theron. I'm writing tonight for the first time in a few days, I haven't got much to say but I'll just write and see where it goes.

New Years Eve's I remember:

1986 - Tammie and I went to Nick Jones' house. I didn't want to drive Tammie home for curfew at or around 1:00 AM that night, so I had John Zuniga do the drive in my Jeep Renegade. He never made it back but called hours later to tell me that my Jeep was totaled. I remember he couldn't recall any details while he was on the phone. I just wanted to know if Tammie was alright, and where I could find the Jeep. Nothing. Well Tammie wasn't in the wreck and the Jeep was totaled.

1989 - I was at a convenience store on Main St. when a guy was shot or was shot at. I remember hearing gunshots and everyone scattering. I can't remember the details because we all got scared and drove off. If I remember right it was a drive by, or someone shooting from a parked car.

1990 - Tammie and I were living in LA, and we decided to traveled to Las Vegas for the big night. We went to several night clubs and stayed far from the strip. The one thing we didn't anticipate was a sold out Vegas. There were no rooms anywhere so we stayed off the strip in a seedy motel. It didn't matter because we never made it back to the room until early the next day.

1994 - I threw a party for Kaylee and for all my nieces and nephews. I had the party favors and decorated the house with balloons. We had pizza and we brought in the new year as a family. Safe and sound.

1999 - I drove a limo in San Diego. The big scare was that all the computers where going to crash. I was hired to take a group of kids to a concert. I think it was a big Blink 182 show. I think it was held at SDSU. I'm a little foggy about the details but it was peaceful.

2000 - Our family and several others went to San Diego Bay for a concert and family night. It was relaxing and a treat when they pulled our kids on stage to dance and sing. I can remember it vividly.

2005 - Stayed home.

2006 - Went to McCoy's Pub House in Westport for a couple drinks.

2007 - Laid in bed.