LSW Titans...

Kaylee started school last week. She is so happy to be back with her friends and her routine. I like watching her get her little life back. I have to admit that I missed taking her to and from school last year but we have a new year ahead of us. I guess the Quijas family is getting back to normal.

Christian is in eighth grade this year. He doesn't like his schedule or team as they call it but what do you do. Christian is such a good kid. He never causes any problems for us and has never got a detention or anything. So we have the start of yet another school year. Amazing.

I can't tell you how nice it is to pick Kaylee up from school. Kaylee told me she loves school and you can see it when she walks out of the doors. Her attitude is so wonderful and refreshing. She is scared to drive to school right now but I'm sure she'll get more comfortable as the year goes on. That's about it with us. Have a good day tomorrow and enjoy your family!

Me and InAd TV...

Hello at 1:18 am in the morning. I am switching out software in computers remotely and I'm tired. I have limited time to work on my restaurants. They are open on average 14 hours per day and I have a certain window of opportunity to work on them. So I usually start really late or real early. I hate early morning but I wish I had it in me.

I wish I was one of those people who could wake at 5:00 am with coffee in hand and knock out some work, but it's not me. I'm up really late and sleep til 8:00 am. Although I had to be in early today because I had computers to fix. I rolled out of bed at 7 and headed to the office. It was much earlier then usual. I put a hat on and bolted out the door. I may have been there earlier but I couldn't find any toothpaste in this house. If one of the kids get low they will steal ours. Today I made my way to Kay's bathroom and couldn't find any. Went to Christians and there was none. So I ended up finding some Hello Kitty toothpaste in Kaylee's drawer and did my business. I wouldn't suggest Hello Kitty toothpaste!

I cringed all day thinking about my writings from last night. I censor what I write but didn't last night. It is best not to broadcast your problems or struggles, especially when it is there for everyone to read. But I finally looked at the blog and decided to leave it where it is. It seems so fake to think I have to always act or put out the perception that I'm doing good. I am doing good but I have problems. We all have problems, but today my problems seem larger than usual.

I so want to succeed at this niche business I've created. I am number one on Google when you type in digital restroom advertising. I have so many companies who call. AMC, Exxon, Live Nation, JE Dunn, McDonalds, Truck Centers, and Businesses across the US. I just can't seem to land that one job that will take me where I need to go. I believe that I could start a nationwide channel in restrooms. While you're doing your business I'm doing mine. I put content in front of you while you have a moment to kill. I can outfit office parks with TV's that run information to employees. My systems can be updated immediately and can be subsidized with outside advertising. Hospitals can tell you about blood drives and Volunteers while the Pharmaceutical companies pay for my systems so they can have a stage to tell you why you should use their product. I need someone who can help me land these deals or help me educate those people who make decisions.

So if you know that person who might have that thing I need please pass on my info. There has to be someone out there who believes that they can make things happen. I have something here but need to mine it out. Digital is the oil and steel of our time. The market is wide open for creative minds. If you know a Rockefeller or Carnegie let them know about me and InAd TV.

10 Out of 30...

Moments ago I went into Kaylee's room because I could see her light on under the door. I was letting the dog out and it caught my eye. It is after midnight and she should be a sleep. I went in and there she is sleeping on the end of her bed. The lights were on and the TV was blaring. I turned everything off and looked at her as I left the room.


Kaylee had chemotherapy today and I'm sure it has made her sick. This is her life right now. This is what she is dealing with tonight at 12:16 am on August 21, 2008. All my problems went out the door when I walked out. I have nothing to worry about. This is a fact but hard to accept because I'm only human. I still worry and get consumed even after looking at this beautiful child fight to get comfortable in her bed. I mean I worry about her but my hyper-focus on the sickness is gone. It has transferred over to me and my personal problems. All my thoughts are consumed with this business that has out grown me.

I fired everyone at InAd TV. Everyone. I am by myself running this company. The burden, yes burden has me thinking. Is all this worth it. You try to make a living doing something you dream up but it becomes work. This last few years have been all about passion. Now it's about sales, software, and sleepless nights. I worry tonight because I have software in 30 restaurants that is malfunctioning. At least 10 of the 30 have called within the last 12 hours. The other 20 will start calling tomorrow. I hate to go to sleep because the morning will be here too soon. I'm supposed to meet a billboard company at noon, give a speech an hour before that, and be at my office by 1:30 to test drive my new website for my new company called 10freeappetizers.com . I have a screen out in Fuel and a TV out in Mickey's Irish Pub that needs tending to. I am supporting the Crossroads Music Fest and need to have videos up and running by tomorrow. The list goes on and on. What do I do?

I have investors who want to question my decisions and my direction. I can never ask for anything because I can do it all my self but I'm starting to question my limits. When does a person say too much? Does everyone carry the same load? Maybe I'm venting and you too have a kid who has cancer, maybe you too do business with a company like the Cordish Group who just spent $1,000,000,000 on a development in downtown KC and don't understand software issues, and maybe you too spent all morning with Steve Dunn from JE Dunn Construction trying to land some skyscraper digital business. Maybe you carry the load better then I do. Maybe I complain and you don't. Maybe, just maybe, we all carry a load.

I know that my daughter is tossing and turning from a shit load of chemo she had to take today. So my days aren't that bad if you compare them to others. I have direction and I have purpose but sometimes the load feels like it's getting heavier and heavier. I'm only human and facing trying times but it will all work out. I should feel fortunate that my tossing and turning tonight is from stress and not poisonous medicine pumped through a port implanted in my chest. I guess I should be grateful.

Purposeful Evening...

It's almost 11:00 pm and I'm still at the office. I have so many things to send out, respond to, and follow up with. I think all those things mean the same thing but you get the picture.

I thank God I have somewhere to be. I have a family member who is going through a tough time and he's lost. I hate to see people get lost. We all have to have purpose or confusion sets in. I wish him the best and I hope someone gets through to him. I've come to the conclusion that you can only be saved if you want to! If I didn't have purpose then I'd be lost.

Check out Kaylee's commercial below. I keep playing it because it is so cool. Take a look and have a good night. Try to find purpose and love the one you're with!

Cool and Happy...

I had a good day today. I was all over the city fixing computers. I was with a friend early today and I commented how I was sick of running around. I have to be here, there, and everywhere. I worrying about my salesmen, I worry about my locations, I worry about the computers scattered through out the city. I worry about 100 plasma & LCD screens. I worry about the advertisers, I worry about advancement, I worry about investors, I worry about bank loans. I worry about my restaurant owners, and I worry about health.

Although today, during the course of my day, I came to the conclusion that I enjoy doing my thing. If I was doing it on someone else's clock then I'd be miserable. But sometimes the grass seems greener on the other side. You do your daily thing and it seems like your neighbor's grind is more appealing than yours. Relationships, work, or possessions can be viewed the same as well. They have have something that I want. Or do they? It doesn't always happen to me, it isn't something I dwell on, but every once in awhile I start eyeing everyone else and their thing.

It didn't take long for me to snap out of it today though. My home was so comfortable when I arrived home. The air condition was nice and cold. Tammie had brats on the grill and Christian had both of our golf clubs ready for a twilight tee time. Kaylee was getting ready to head to a friend's house and all the pets greeted me at the door. It doesn't get any better then that.

We might not be the richest family, we might not be the happiest family at times, but we are family and we are comfortable. I think providing comfort for your family is very important. If you have comfort sprinkled with some love then it is all good. What more could a man ask for? Well my advice to you is this. Be happy with what you have and if you feel it isn't right then try to change it. Set your thermostat low, have plenty of charcoal or propane, and keep your eye on the ball. It's those people who search for things outside their home that ultimately find out that the grass is the same across the street or around the block!