One-80

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Irons, Fires, and Trust...

I'm bored! This weather has created "cabin fever" for me. I want to do something. Most days I have places to be but today I didn't attempt to travel or venture far from home. I was on the computer for most of the day due to the weather. I am going crazy. We have one car because the other two are rear wheel drive, which means I have to stick close to home because I have one kid at a friend's house and another one with a friend here who'll want a ride home soon. Good job on purchasing cars that you can't drive in the snow!

Probably best that I stay close to home because this weather is uuuuuugly! I have no where to go anyway. This economy is a killer. I deal with all sorts of businesses out in the community and there's hardly any who haven't been hurt. Including mine. Luckily I'm a natural hustler and have more "irons in the fire" then most so I won't let this economy hurt me. But advertising in general is on hard times.

It's hard to imagine that there are people out there who don't have to worry about money. I worked for several people in San Diego who were Trust Fund Babies. They had millions and money was never an issue. They had other problems but money wasn't one of them. If you could take that money load off of me I would figure out the rest, believe me. I have to deal with the other shit any ways, so excluding money from the equation would just make things easier. I mention money every once in awhile because I do my own thing. It is such a sweet feeling when you get past the point of dreaming working for your self and actually do it, but then the reality of making your own paycheck on a consistent basis regardless of economy or sickness is scary.

I don't get scared too often because I have faith in me. If I ever lose that then everyone around me should get nervous. I often have to worry about daily dilemmas but seldom ever worry about where I'm going or where I'll end up! I visualize success. Please know that my vision of success isn't just about money. Although that is number one for me, money, so I can do great things in the community and world. I want to be able to have an engine, if you can call it that, that can fund all my endeavors. Each day that's why I get up, so I can add to my little empire.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, digital applications is and will be a technology goldmine! If a company like mine can implement applications with digital screens like no other then the world is yours. I have digital mannequins, digital full video belt buckles, digital name tags, and various other retail fixtures debuting soon. They are going to rock the digital world, mark my words. So if you have an extra million just send it over! :0)

Goodnight and keep warm.

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."

Kaylee was at CMH today getting her blood work and counts taken. All chemo had been suspended for the last week or so to see were she stood on her health before they continue pumping her with that poison they call chemo. Sickness over took her last week so the doctors wanted her to get some rest. She is doing fine on her immune system and blood so the bombarding restarts tonight! The chemo has to continue for one more year 10/10/09 to follow the protocol she is on. We follow the rules and advice to ensure the treatments will work and eventually make my daughter cancer free for the rest of her life.

I was in Lawrence this afternoon. InAd TV is going to launch there and I'm pretty excited. We have had offers from across the country to enter different markets but I think Lawrence is a good choice. It is close to home and easy to enter the market because most venues know what my business is and what it does. I am also going to work with a major media group there and feel the fit is perfect. Keep your fingers crossed for my family and for my business.


Well I am comfortable to night and I'm having fun with this Facebook thing. Please add me to your friends michael@inadtv.com if you do it. I can't believe the friends that I'm reuniting with through this service. Incredible.

I want to comment on a profile that I came across. Her name is Deanna Ziegler of Kansas City. I know Deanna and I am related to her ex-husband through marriage. I look at her pictures and it is so apparent that all her gang of friends love each other. I saw her out one night and there she had 10 of her friends with her. Now let me make this clear, I can run with 10 guys but it isn't the same. This group is friends, husbands and wives, and even ex-husbands. It makes me envious, although the word is better replaced with admire, but I look at their friendship and think how valuable that bond is. Why I'm saying this is simple. You can have money, you can have the best looks, but you can't just have valuable friendships. Great friendships take some sort of investment, substance, or work. My hat goes off to you Deanna because you obviously deserve great friends because you must be a great person! Just my little observation.

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us." - Danielle N. Redfield

Shirley Temple

I joined Facebook! Kaylee is embarrassed but I have so many people I've reconnected with that I'm going to stay on it regardless. That site is amazing. It is reconnecting me with so many people I haven't talked to in such a long time. The fun thing for me has been reuniting with people that I lost contact with when I left the KCK school district. Although I love my folks from Shawnee Mission North it is nice to reconnect to your roots.

The people I have connected with look so good and seem to be doing great. As I get older (and wiser?) I sincerely feel good when I know others are doing good. Some people could careless if others are doing good, but I love to hear when life is treating others well. I guess I think we all deserve a good life.

Life is what you make of it. Last night I had to go to the hospital to visit a friend, a family member, Paul Vega. He was assaulted at a nightclub Thursday and was hurt severely. His head was fractured and his nose was broken. Paul is the toughest man I know and it goes to show you don't always win every battle. But when I was there I observed his gown, his hospital issued booty's, and his swollen face. I couldn't help but think that he is only human and didn't deserve the hurt he received. Tammie told me to take a good look at him and consider what could happen if you put yourself in the wrong situation. I did. Although it was a random attack it was just being there that led to his admission into ICU.

After leaving there I was suppose to meet a few guys out for some drinks but I went home instead. What happened to Paul could happen to me. It never fails that every time I go out someone always brings up how tough I was as a kid. This usually begins with someone mentioning it to me and whatever group I'm with. Then they point it out to others I don't know. Well you never know who wants to see if you still have it. I suspect that's what may have happened to Paul. I even have guys with me that will start trouble just knowing I'm there. Little do most of them know that it breaks my heart to think of anyone having to spend one night in the hospital. Especially if it was me!

Almost all of us have people that love us. I have kids, a wife, a mother, sisters, all of whom would be devastated if I was to get hurt. It wouldn't matter how I got hurt they would be heartbroken. I watched Paul's kids cry as their father lay there unrecognizable from his injuries. I looked at those same injuries and couldn't help but think how fragile our existence is. Tough to think how injury, sickness, or death can hurt and heartbreak a family.

It was sometime back that I was mad that Kaylee had gotten sick. The anger was there and Tammie was scared when I would go out. She worried that it might set me off if I was out and someone did something to trigger it. I would tell her she was crazy and continue to get dressed. But she was right. Drinking and socializing in places with strangers can be dangerous if you come across the wrong person. Hell, it could be me who could hurt someone. How ironic would that be. Me, so in tune with hurt and heartbreak and I accidentally hurt someone. That would be my luck. My irresponsible actions would place a kid, a wife, mother and sisters next to some poor guy in a hospital bed.

So from this point forward I'm drinking Shirley Temples and hanging out at the local Chuck E Cheese! Well maybe not the Chuck E Cheese but you get the point.

Home Alone...

Kaylee was admitted into the hospital tonight. Kay has been sick the last two days and the doctors want to observe her for the next few days because her immune and blood levels have dropped significantly.

It has been almost a year since we've had to spend the night at CMH. I had almost forgot Kaylee had cancer. She does chemo and the visits are once a month now. I feel bad she has to endure admissions and needles. It would be so traumatic for anyone but it makes you feel terrible when it's your kid. I think she's in a great place considering she does have cancer.

I took Kaylee to the emergency room tonight because her fever reached 103 degrees. It was amazing how quickly the staff checked Kaylee into the ER. They expedited Kaylee so smoothly and fast I felt very good about the quick response. The ER is not where you want your kid if they're missing an immune system. We get a clean room or a sanitized environment but being there is risky. We didn't have to wait at all.

I stayed up last night until 6:00 am this morning because Kaylee was sick. She only woke up once at 5:30 am and said she was wasn't feeling any better. I got Tammie up and her fever was at 102 but it dropped at 6:30 and the doctors on call said lets wait and see where she goes with the fevers before we take her into CMH. So it wasn't until tonight at 7:30 when I went in and Kaylee felt hot. Her temp was at 103 and that's when we got the go ahead to take her in.

It sounds like I'm all over the sickness but it's Tammie. We do shifts. I'll stay up at night so Tammie can get some sleep. It is her who ends up playing Florence Nightingale when the work needs to be done. It was me that took Kaylee to the ER because if she got checked in, like she did, that's when Tammie's work begins. She stays with Kaylee in the hospital and I relieve her in the morning. It is uncomfortable staying in the hospital. I will get Christian off to school and then I'll make my way to CMH. Tammie will be here when Christian gets off the bus and will get him ready for his big dance tomorrow. This sickness can throw a monkey wrench in anything you have planned. Christian has been excited about this dance and got new clothes for the occasion and a haircut. Christian and Tammie have been getting him ready for his night. Unfortunately Kaylee's sickness will take part of his excitement away. We will be focused on her even though we are going to get him off to his big night. Kaylee's cancer takes precedent over everything.


So tonight I lay here with my girls gone. Hopefully this little bug will pass and we can disappear into the crowd like we have this past year. This cancer sucks and makes you realize that having cancer comes with certain realities. You have to be careful, more so then other people. I'm certain Kaylee knows this is only a speed bump. Sickness is crazy at this time of the year and her being at school means she is exposed to the potential threats of sickness crawling in the halls and that cougher we all hear and see who doesn't cover their mouth. Well that's all I have for tonight.